20 Weeks!

20 weeks

How far along? 20 weeks! Half way there!

What is Baby G up to? Baby G is the size of a banana and sitting right on top of my bladder! LOL. I can feel movements all day long, mostly when I lay down to go to bed at night.

How am I feeling? I feel good! But this heat is no joke. I’m exhausted by the end of the day. Actually, on weekends when Finn goes down for a nap, I’ve been trying to lay down and relax as much as possible. I’ve been up to exercise a bit, but my hunger is insatiable. I could eat all day every day if I could. That being said, heartburn has returned with a vengeance this pregnancy, and so much earlier than with Finn. There are times I get heartburn when I drink a glass of water, it’s so ridiculous. I’m living on Tums and drinking milk as much as possible, which seems to take the edge off.

What am I wearing? Still wearing dresses and flat shoes. I can’t stand the heat, but I gotta say, wearing dresses all the time is so much easier than being pregnant in the winter!

What am I craving/eating? I watched documentary a few weeks ago about eating free-range meat and meat products and it changed my life. LOL not really, but it did get me thinking a bit more about the things we choose to eat and to feed to Finn. David listened to my ridiculousness and since then, we’ve been buying free range meat from the local farmer’s market. It makes me think a lot about eating and how it effects our body and our mood. In the last year, we’ve moved to eating a high-protein diet with very limited carbs. However, a few weeks ago, I was breaking out on my arms and chest and started cutting out food and reintroducing them and realized eggs were causing the rash. I’ve had to experiment with other breakfast foods to keep me fueled throughout the morning. I’ve been eating sweet potatoes and free range sausage, which seems to keep me full. But it’s so tempting to just grab a bagel instead!

What’s on my mind lately? I’m trying to get through the next few weeks at work and not think too much about the exciting things coming up. On July 11, our third anniversary, we get to find out the gender of Baby G. Then two days later, we will start driving north for a week long vacation in the Adirondacks with my entire family. In the meantime, I chose to work though July 4th to save on PTO.

I’ve also been stressing a bit about furnishing our house. I know it takes time, but the nesting symptom is kicking in and I really want to feel settled in our house long before baby arrives. I sat down and made a list of things that still need to be done which helped calm my anxiety a little, but I’m still a bit overwhelmed.

What am I looking forward to? Finding out the gender of Baby G #2!

Best moment of the week? David and I snuck away for a date night on Saturday night. We hadn’t been out just the two of us since before moving into our house. We had sushi (vegetarian for me), played arcade games, shopped, and even bought a new Instant-Pot. It was so wonderful to spend time with him and do absolutely nothing spectacular and still enjoy being together. I highly advise dating your husband.

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18 Weeks!

18 weeks

My dress is a must-have pregnancy staple // this top is maternity, too, and under $20!

How far along? 18 weeks and 2 days

What is Baby G up to? Baby G is the size of an artichoke, or according to my other app, a pair of sunglasses. I’ve felt some flutters in my lower belly, and David was even able to feel a kick. Just like his/her brother, definitely a busy baby!

How am I feeling? I’m on cruise control in this pregnancy. Right at that stage where I’m not too uncomfortable, and starting to feel more energy. I’ve started to workout again, which feels great. I think I may have developed an allergy to eggs, because after eating them I broke out in a rash on my arms and felt nauseas for the next 12 hours. Other than that, I’m just HOT!

What am I wearing? Lots and lots of dresses! And trying to make them work in different ways by styling them differently.

What am I craving/eating? I’ve had a craving for steamed shrimp with Ole Bay seasoning. Someone satisfy this craving for me!

What’s on my mind lately? I’m trying to soak in the last summer with Finn and David before another round of chaos changes our lives again. I am trying to spend as much time as a family as possible and I’m so looking forward to a week away with my family in just a couple weeks.

What am I looking forward to? I’m always looking forward to the weekend to spend time with David and Finn and to add a little more to our house. Things are starting to come together, but I have a long to-do list to complete before baby comes in November!

Best moment of the week? David felt the baby move, which is much earlier than with Finn. It’s crazy to think we don’t know this little nugget yet, but in just a few short months, he or she will be such a huge part of our lives!

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15 Week Bumpdate

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I have this dress in two colors. It’s non-maternity, but works perfectly with or without a bump! So flattering.

How far along? 15 weeks (and a couple days)

What is Baby G up to? Baby G is the size of a navel orange. I’m pretty sure I felt some movement earlier this week, and I’m positive I saw baby moving when I was laying flat on my back the other day. If this babe is anything like his or her brother, then sitting still just doesn’t happen.

How am I feeling? The answer to this question changes day to day. One day I’m full of energy, upbeat and ready to take on the world and the next I’m hovering over the toilet all morning and taking three hour naps – that is if it’s the weekend. I’m pretty sure my coworkers are starting to worry about my mental state cause I’ve been like a walking zombie at work, but honestly, I’m just beat.

I keep recalling the specific thought I had when I was pregnant with Finn, that people actually do pregnancy with another kid at home – more often than not, a toddler! I remember thinking it would be impossible, and I wasn’t far off. Yes, I’m being a bit dramatic, but at the end of a work day, I’m finding it even more difficult to find the energy to be a mom. It’s draining, and got me thinking a lot about my future as a mom of two kids. But more of that below…

What am I wearing? I’m trying to be more aware of the pieces I’m buying this pregnancy. I want to ensure that my wardrobe can work for post-pregnancy as well, so I’m investing in pieces that I like with or without a bump. Right now, I’m still in a lot of my normal clothes, with some exceptions (the jeans went out the window around week 8), but with the weather being so warm, dresses are doing the job just fine.

What am I craving/eating? Not having any overwhelming cravings this pregnancy, just letting myself eat what I want, without stressing the number on the scale too much. I started this pregnancy below my first pre-pregnancy weight and my weight gain has been very similar to my pregnancy with Finn. I stressed about how my body looked a lot the first time around, but was pleasantly surprised at how well I bounced back, so I’m letting myself enjoy this time, without going too crazy.

What’s on my mind lately? Like I mentioned above, the thought of being a working mom of two has my mind racing. I just don’t like the thought of it. Let’s take a trip down memory lane… when I first had Finn, I remember looking forward to going back to work, I think for the sense of normalcy. I craved adult attention and a purpose other than nursing and changing diapers. Somewhere along the road, maybe when Finn was nine or ten months old, I started dreading the daycare drop-off. And the older he gets, the harder it is for me to say goodbye to him every morning. Now that he’s two, I can’t stop thinking about all the time I’ve missed with him. The normalcy I once craved is becoming stale, and a little meaningless. I struggle with this daily! And that alone is exhausting. Is getting a paycheck worth it? There’s the career woman in me that argues that it is, but more and more of me is becoming a mom, and being a stay at home mom is something I never envisioned for myself. 

Now we are a few months away from having two children and I know that mom feeling will only grow. I find purpose being a mom, and that fuels me. And, I’m tired of choosing between the two worlds. I think this topic could be it’s own post, because I have a lot to say about it. But this is certainly the most overwhelming feeling I have right now. Any other mamas relate?

What am I looking forward to? David has been out of town this week for work, so I’m looking forward to him coming home! I’m also looking forward to adding some decoration to our bare walls and maybe finally pulling the trigger on an area rug?? We will see…

Best moment of the week? Finn is talking up a storm. The other day, we went to Lowe’s to pick up a few things and as David was checking out, Finn and I decided to sit on the tractors outside and play. I sat right in a puddle, and poor Finn was soo distraught that I got wet! He kept telling David that “Mama sat on tractor, got wet”. It was adorable… the whole way home!

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Finn at Two Years Old

My baby boy is turning two on Saturday! I swear, it seems just like yesterday. I thought life was flying by before, but once I had a kid, it’s like two years go by in a blink. It’s unbelievable to think about everything that has happened in his short lifetime. He is the sweetest little boy with quite the personality. He is very independent, but is a total Mama’s Boy. He and his Daddy laugh like I’ve never seen David laugh before. And Juneau has finally accepted him as a pack member. I am so blessed to be Finn’s mom.

Parenting

Being a parent is by far the hardest thing I’ve ever done, and the job is never over. I second guess most every decision I make, I feel enormous guilt every day, I am physically, mentally and emotionally exhausted, and I have no idea what I’m doing. The good part of all of that? I’m totally at peace with it.

I’m not going to pretend that I don’t have bad days, because I certainly do. I lose my temper, I pray for bedtime, and I feed him too many fruit snacks to be considered a balanced diet. However, I decided to stop seeing myself so negatively and reminding myself daily that I’m a great mom. Finn is so loved!

David and I have had a lot of conversations about parenting a toddler, which is much more proactive than parenting a baby. We’ve started implementing a ‘time out’ policy, which has been successful this far. We also make sure to spend the weekends together as a family since the work week can be quite hectic with all of us in different places. We’ve also talked a lot about making sure that Finn spends time with family and travels often, both things that we value highly!

Physical Growth

Finn hasn’t been weighed in a while, but he is well over 30 pounds. He’s a solid kid, just like his dad. He is wearing 24 month/2T clothing and size 7 shoes. He loves to run and jump and climb on everything.

Mental Growth

Finn is quite chatty these days, and we can make out approximately 10 percent of what he’s actually saying! HA! But it’s still amazing to watch him tell his stories and catch onto words and phrases. He loves to read, which I’m thankful for, and has recently started reading to us rather than the other way around. He still love Moana and playing outside. The kid loves water!

Sleep

Gosh, I don’t think a day goes by where I don’t thank my lucky stars for the great sleeper that Finn is. His bedtime is between 7 and 8pm, depending on how long he napped that day. I go in with some milk and read to him for a little while, then give him a kiss, David comes in and reads a book, tucks him in and gives him a kiss. Finn says “night night” and rolls over. He sleeps from 7-8pm to 7am and naps from around 12:30-1pm until about 3pm.

Eating

Finn’s been a good eater up until about a week ago. He just doesn’t seem interested in anything. It’s been tough on David and I, but I don’t want food to become a thing. I know this is just a phase and he will get over it.

Things I Don’t Want to Forget

  • The way he drags out “mm-hmm” when we ask him a question
  • The way he puckers his lips for a good kiss
  • The way he loves to help us clean. Finn loves to vacuum 🙂
  • The way he wrestles with David

Happy Birthday Finn Ryan! We love you!

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My First Trimester Experience – Round 2

13 weeks pregnant

I had so much fun documenting my pregnancy with Finn the first time around, I thought I’d do the same for this one. I can’t tell you how many times I’ve gone back and re-read the weekly bump-dates from my first pregnancy. I’ve never regretted sharing that information. It’s like an online journal that I get to revisit whenever I want.

As I said in our announcement, this pregnancy has felt a lot different – both physically and mentally. For starters, this baby was planned. We made the decision around Christmas to start trying, and it didn’t take long to see a plus sign on the pregnancy test.

How We Found Out

I had been tracking my cycle with several pregnancy apps since about Thanksgiving. I learned a ton about the time period between when you’re fertile and when you may have a positive pregnancy test, only because I was reading everything I could online! The “two week wait” as they call it is full of anxiety and watching for every little symptom. When we went to the Bahamas, I was due to take a pregnancy test the day we got back. I was so sure I was pregnant. We were even talking about it at dinner the last night we were there. I barely drank anything just to be safe. However, the day we were traveling home I got my period and I was so bummed. I only experienced that feeling once and it was heartbreaking. My heart goes out to those who feel that month after month.

In March I started buying pregnancy tests the day my app told me that there was a slight chance at a positive. Of course it was too early and the first few turned up negative. Finally, two days before my period was supposed to start, I took two pregnancy tests, both with pretty faint lines on them. David wasn’t convinced, so I waited another two days and took the last one. It was a Monday before work. I got up early, took the test and showed it to him. We were both thrilled!

Stress & Symptoms

Pretty much from the moment I found I was pregnant our lives became completely crazy. We had to start packing up our apartment, finalizing paperwork for our house, figure out a living situation since our closing date had been pushed back, and on top of all that, still be parents to Finn.

My symptoms started at about 6 weeks. (Fun fact: Pregnancy starts from the first day of your last period. Therefore, when you take a pregnancy test, you are already about 4 weeks along. Obviously, you haven’t been pregnant that whole time since you have your period, then you ovulate and all that fun stuff. This is also the reason why pregnancy is 40 weeks long, but they say you are pregnant for 9 months. The math doesn’t add up, but when you add those first four weeks, it makes sense!)  Nausea, sore boobs, bloating, all the fun stuff. I started showing at 8 weeks! I had so many food aversions, I can’t even list them all, and was throwing up roughly 3-4 times a week in the morning. It hasn’t been fun, but now that I’m turning the corner out of the first trimester, things are feeling better.

Does Finn Know?

Finn knows that there is a baby in Mommy’s belly, but there’s no way the kid understands what is about to happen. He is so sweet with babies wherever we go, so I can’t wait to see him with his brother or sister. Right now, it’s easy to get distracted from being pregnant because of him. He is my best little buddy, so I love just spending time with him!

All The Feelings

Regardless of how excited we were to find out we were expecting another baby, my emotions have been all over the place. I’m pretty terrified, to be honest. There’s so much more to being a mom than just making sure baby is fed, and knowing everything I know now about the newborn stage, I can’t help but get a little anxious thinking about those first few months. I’m stressing about Finn’s role, about money, about potentially sending two kids to daycare, about David and I finding time for one another. I know these are all very normal things since I felt them with my first pregnancy as well, but it’s hard to push them aside.

The Most Popular Questions I Get Asked

Yes, we are planning to find out the gender, but since we opted out of the 12 week screening for Down’s Syndrome, we will have to wait until 20 weeks. We made the same decision with Finn and we never regretted it. Our mindset is that no matter the baby we bring into this world we will love him or her unconditionally. Plus, I think it’s kind of fun to have to wait a little while to find out the gender! It gives us lots of time to speculate. While we will be telling the gender of the baby once we find out, I’m not sure if I’ll be sharing it on the blog. My Dad likes to be surprised and since he’s a reader, I can’t share all the details here!

Yes, we have several names picked out already. Picking out baby names is just a fun conversation to have, so we’ve been talking about this for as long as I can remember. We had several boys names locked down quite early on, but finding a girl’s name has been much tougher! I think we may have settled on one though! And just like with Finn, we won’t be announcing the name until he or she is born.

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