You seemed to have stuck around forever, and yet, I can’t believe how fast you have flown by. This is the second time we’ve met, and so much has changed this time around. You have changed my body forever, to a point where I don’t even recognize myself – swollen ankles and hands, puffy face, my hips are wider than they’ve ever been. After you go, my body will still be changing, attempting to get back to how I was before, while still trying to nourish a baby. The physical changes are what everyone sees, but it’s the rest of it that only you and I can feel.
I appreciate you, pregnancy. You have given me two beautiful gifts, and I’m still amazed at the miracle you produce. From essentially nothing, you create a human life. That’s incredible. I have been feeling every kick, every punch, every little movement with awe. I’m being a little dramatic, but it’s truly an experience.
You’ve caused a lot of pain, too. My joints hurt. My back is always throbbing. My pelvis, welp, it’s taking on most of the load. I can barely walk without getting winded and I can’t pick up my two-year-old without letting out endless grunts. I know as soon as you’re over, other pain and discomforts will take over, which is nothing to look forward to. I almost prefer your pain to what comes next…
The hidden side of pregnancy, the hormones, those really got to me this time around. You made me irritable and snappy. You made me worried and anxious. You brought out the ugly sides of me.
But in the end, more than everything you’ve given me and caused me, you’ve taught me so much. You’ve taught me that life is a miracle. You’ve taught me that my body is stronger than I had
ever imagined. You taught me empathy for other mothers. You taught me unconditional love. You taught me patience. You have taught me to be in tune with my body. You have taught me grace.
Thank you for letting me experience you again. I cannot wait to sleep on my stomach and wear normal clothes again. I cannot wait to meet our baby and make our family complete. However, just like last time, I know I will miss you. I know I will see other woman sporting your notorious bump and feel nostalgic. So I’m trying to embrace these last few days and weeks and welcome all the discomfort and appreciate all the changes.