I thought that by now my daily inspiration would be from the changing colors in the tree, the smell of crisp fall air, and endless Pumpkin Spice Lattes (yes, I capitalized that), however I quickly reminded myself I no longer live in Western New York and summertime lasts a little longer in Virginia.
It may be the most obvious inspiration of them all, but watching Finn grow is by far the best thing I’ve ever witnessed. I’ve never watched a baby grow from birth, or at least I don’t think I truly appreciated it. Finn learns new things every day. His new thing is holding his own bottle – I never thought I’d get so excited from watching someone do such a simple thing! He’s also so close to rolling over, and every time he is laying on his back and starts to peek over the top of his head and twist his little body, I become the world’s corniest mom and cheer him on.
It truly feels like life has been flying by lately. Finn is nearly four months old – and he is the happiest four month old I’ve ever seen. Recently, I’ve been looking at him and thinking, “gosh, we made that!” It’s such a surreal feeling that he is ours!
I’ll be the first person to admit that I was absolutely terrified- sad, even- when I found out I was pregnant. The first six weeks with Finn were absolutely exhausting and frustrating. Someone told me early on that around the 12 week mark, things start to get a little easier – whether that be because you get into a rhythm or because the baby is a little older, that was the truest thing I’ve ever experienced. At three months, our lives were full of giggles and smiles instead of tears and sleepless nights.
I never thought being a parent would feel so natural. It may have taken a bit of time, but I finally feel good about being a mom. I’m so in love with Finn and I’m so in love with watching David with Finn. (Juneau still needs some time… we are getting there!) He is the sweetest boy ever, and I’m so lucky he is mine.
I truly feel so blessed to be Finn’s mom and to share the experience with David. I keep telling Finn he is the best thing we’ve ever done – he just looks at me and then he gives me the goofiest, toothless smile!